moody

2009-12-15
20:13(GMT+4)

Few dayz ago… one of my colleague (Ang Mo) has received the letter of termination b4 he go for his vacation (it’s early notice)…

Today, my fren (from M’sia) has received the termination message/letter from our Commercial Manager too….

No Surprise, just a little bit shock… we knew this will come, but didn’t expect that so early…. We tot can tahan until Feb 2010 wan....

Actually, my fren sudah expected he could get goreng aredi… coz he has serious argument wif our Commercial Manager b4 tat… he is planning to tender resignation after March 2010… mana tahu, its come so suddenly... now leave me and 2 juniors in our department... holly shit.... stresss....

hmmm… after received the termination notice, my fren feel happy n upset at the same time..

happy is becoz no ned to compensate the 23k rental, at the same time can get 1 month salary in lieu of compensation, no ned to face the Manager anymore, n the most important 1 is can go fleeing from this country....

upset is becoz kena goreng.. it’s nothing to be proud of…

hmmm... you may wronged, innocent or discontented with it, but the fact is~~~
u have been eliminated~~!!!

it sounds damn lantiuz, but tat’s the fact… I really do wish he could change his sikap abit lah… sigh….

Well, think of other way… its good thing for him… at least he can go back M’sia n celebrates the Chinese New Year… which I couldn’t make it..

sigh… I will stay in Middle East alone during the CNY…

sigh… no choice, u ned to satisfy something in order to gain something… no pain, no gain… it's fact of life~~

earthquake~ different of treatment~~

I stil remember.... 1 yr ago…… I had called my mum to donate some money for the Earthquake in China when I read the news from the internet (I’m working in oversea)…

I think... as a ‘chinese’… we should show some care needs to our race… mana tahu my mum really listened to my advice… n she go tolong organize a charity dinner in our village sommore…. OMG~~ my mum…. Really……. I hav nothing to say… =p

it was published on sin-chew newspaper…. The total donation was RM10,720… within one night… hmmm… it can be considered as a very nice result for a kampong aredi…. good job~~ proud of u~~!!!

But this time… our ‘neighbour’ country experienced an Eartquake… I hav to call my mum~~
"You should NEVER, EVER, TRY to donate a single cent to THEM.... DUN EVEN THINK ABOUT IT~~!!! "

I can be very kind.... n very cruel without pity …. it depends on whom I face…. this is me~~!!!



dang dang dang dang~~ m youngest sister cut it from sinchew newspaper, scanned it n email to me~~

hmmmm..... women.........

Question:
If there is a restaurant next to your house, the foods r expensive n tasteless, the cockroaches crawl along the wall… r u going to re-visit or return to tat restaurant againz just becoz it is near & convenient to u??

Answer:
definitely , absolutely, certainly u’ll say “ NO~~~!!!"
"I can go elsewhere.. I won’t be so stupid, I won’t spend money on such idiot restaurant anymnore…”

But somewere, U DO~~~!!!
U really re-visit tat kind of STUPID + IDIOT restaurant even u noe it is sarks~~~!!”

this situation could be applied in ur relationship…
u alwyz complaining about ur bf… he is so irresponsible + reat u badly + sarks + curi makan + alwyz cheating + disloyal…

u noe tat the situation will becom worse in future…. he is hopeless….
HOWEVER, u stil wan to go on, forgive him n continue stick wif him….

It sounds like u stil ‘re-visit’ the idiot restaurant right? even it is expensive, tasteless + dirty~~~

Pls lah… LET GO lah… u r a princess & u deserve to be treated well~~
pls... dump him lar...

I noe u r aging now… doesn’t mean tat u hav to be treated like this…
u noe u r aging now.. tat’s y u hav to make decision quickly…. when u found out tat ur bf treat u badly or not suitable to u.. Dump him~~!!!

sometimes, I wondering y women like to be ‘‘abused’’ by the bad guy…
I alwyz wondered y ladies find it difficult to break their attachment to those who treat them really badly toO….

sigh... I believe this is something to do wif a girls’ self confidence… they might hav lack of self-confidence which leads them to think tat they do not deserve for a better guy therefore they pick the bad 1….

zZzZzzz….

anyway, this is a very sensitive issue to discuss....... i just wish u "all the best" lah... sigh....

shift, switch, shit....

finally.. i'm connected...

i hav been shift frm the building 1 to building 3 (HQ)...
then shift from HQ to Site Office...
n then shift frm Site Office to another Site Office (coz that temporary site office not enough space for me to carry out my works)...

zZzZz...

mahai.. i'm going to move to a new accommodation end of this month...

zZzzZz...

kena pack my things againz.......

zZzZz.....

I'm an Idiot

I really feel tat I’m going mad when disturbed people troubling me~~~
especially when I was busy’inG to manage 7 guys to rush for an addendum for 46 buildings within 4 days (at the same time, my leave application have been rejected by my Manager, I might not able to attend my good fren’s wedding dinner)…

fark~~!!
againz..it happens againz…
it is just as the same~ wat happening in 3 yrs ago…
I scold a rude word + show my anger in our conversation (me n my dream gal)…
my image spoil againz.. one more time..
(i remember i avoid this gal for almost 1 yr after matter.. n now.. the same thing will be repeated??/)
zZzzzzz....

fark man.. I think I'm not tat kind of fella tat show my anger easily 1… but it just happens twices within this 3 yrs.....

why is this happening to me… againz???
i lost myself n unable to judge wisely... n i feel i like a stupid fella...

i'm so emotional~~~!!!!!

grrrRRRr~~ wat am i doing here??
fark... i duno wat to say.. n how to say... farking panic now...
zZzzzzz.....

perhaps.. it is the time to cut off relations wif tat disturbed fren…
well, it is a little childish but i really dun 1 get mad anymroe becoz of him.... it is enough~~~!!!!

I’m farking down + upset now…

hAM is an idiot~~!!!!

i hav been placed on the "ALTAR"~~

U guys remember tat~~!!??
I was complaining bout I hav been requested to lead a small team to carry out the tasks/works by a US fatty (my Chief Estimator)??

b4 tat... i hav been taken over n incharge for some 'shit' aredi..
tat senior QS transferred to site, n he didn’t hand over the things to anybody…
this is so shit~~!! I hav to judge everything by myself… duno my company will suffer lossing of tat o not… but dun worry so much lar... everything loOks fine... =p

n now.. u request me to lead a small team to finalize the shitz againz.....
I keep blaming, ''y me~~!?? there r so many QS(s) in my department wat.. all(majority) also older than me 1… n I’m just temporary staff (temporary in HQ)… y I neD to lead them n not they come to lead me~~!!?? is there any reason behind it~~!!?? grRRRRR~~~''
zzZzZzz..

well… I received the pay slip this afternoon.. n I just noticed tat those “older QS” punya position r lower than me… (no 1der lah...)
=.= '''

OMG~~ they r just junior QS.. not even an assistance QS….
WTF~~!!??? dua (2) level lower than me… holly shit…
proof once againz, the Nationality is damn IMPORTANT~~!!!
but ofcoz.. the races n qualification r damn important toO~~~!!!

PKM…. stresSSSSSS……

I wan increment + bonus~~~!!!
(but I dun1 get "promoted "…)
>.<

bad news from fren...

a fren of mine msg me this afternoon…

he is going to divorce wif his wife…. Submitting the documents to lawyer tomorrow…

finally….. walk until this step….

Sigh…… they used to be a happi couple.. but things n ppl keep changing…

they registered in yr 2006 n their love is death (divorce) in yr 2009…

counting wif my fingers, I noe this couple since 1998.. more than 10 yrs aredi…

seeing their ending really make me upset..

however , this is their decision… I shall respect their decision…

zZzZzzz… I moody againz…. zzZzZz..

cointsSSSS~

i'm trying to spend the coints as fast as i can aredi..
i dun1 keep them la...
>.<



AED 260++ cointsssssssssss



money monster~~ >.<

crazy~

(nasi lemak + ikan bilis sambal + curry chicken + cucuk udang)*2 + almond jelly + (teh O ais)*3 + (beer + wong lou kat)*2 + potato chips + ice lemon tea = stomachache + 2 rolls of toilet paper + dai se

Picture Say a Thousand Words...

U BASTARD~~~!!!

OMG~~ she is seriously injured..
I can’t believe it.. I tot it just an April fool’s joke….

OMG~~ I’m kinda upset right now..
I hav no mood to work after I heard the news frm my fren……
she stil looks so healthy in this morning…

y? y u do this to her??
y u dun drive carefully?
u mother farker idiot~~~!!! BASTARD~~!!
ur mother nv teach u drive safely?
u simply langgar ppl for farks arr?????
duno who is tat bastard~~

i really hope this bastard get an eternal punishment he deserves…
i wish~~~!!!!

i am prostitute~~~!!???

sombody/another 1 is leaving our country soon...

another fren just msg me, she told me tat she is going to Australia soon.. she just got an offer there… finally, she can work in oversea now… as her wish....

hrmmmm… many of my frens went to S’pore, UK, Australia or other countries after graduating from high school…

yes, it’s all about the money….. everybody r trying to justify their actions by saying they have no choice... our country pay us too little n bla bla bla…. but in reality they wish to stay in their lovely country… their family & frens r here….. it remind me bout the Emil Chow’s song~ “其实不想走,其实我想留” (qi shi bu xiang zhou, qi shi wo xiang liu)~~

Sometimes I also wonder I spend too much or earn too little… fark, I baru spend RM500 per month when the time I working I m’sia.. n this RM500 is included the transportation fees, lunch, mobile recharge, entertainment + others expenses (red bom + ppl’s birthday n etc)… Mahai, damn gila lar… I dun think I spend too much lor.. so.. definitely is becoz I earn too little or my pay too low… fark, tat pay really not enough for me....

after graduated from high school, I used to work in m’sia, s’pore then the middle east within 2 yrs (exactly period is 18 months)… hrmmm… change so many companies within such a short period… ofcoz, by jumping here n jumping there, my salary also multiply with a factor lar…

ohh…. si-hAM arrr si-hAM~~ siapa able to pay u higher salary, u akan pergi mana… although I keep running here n there… but no doubt, I luv my country… damn lots.. I just hate those politicians & ‘’mata’’….

well, I’m not the best in my class, I’m not good in social, poor in communication n bla bla bla… but, now I’m the highest pay among my high school schoolmate… I guess I’m the lucky 1… sometimes, I think it is an miracle~~

Truly, frankly speaking…. I dun like to work in oversea… I dun wan to work in oversea… but I have no choice, I hav to work in other countries just for clearing my heavy debt…

wait… y it sounds so familiar?
Were did I heard this be4??
Oh~~~ frm a show…..
prostitutes say the same thing…. they say they dun like to work as a prostitutes, they dun wan to work as a prostitute….. they open their legs and do blowjobs on their clients not becoz they r enjoying wat they r doing…. In fact, most prostitutes hate themselves for who they r & hate themselves for doing wat they do… but they hav no choice... It is not bout the pleasure of sex….It is bout the necessity of money…. MONEY~~!!!

I hav to work in an environment which I tak suka just becoz I hav no choice in the matter… I ned money~~~!!
Well.. sometimes I think I just like a gigolo or those prostitutes….they r selling their bodies, n I’m selling my time, my knowledge & my LIFE to my company…
In fact, we r selling our soul, coz we r doing something we dun like becoz we hav no choice..

Sigh….

back to the topic....

to my fren who is going to Australia soon, I wish u good luck lar..
hope u able to adopt the environment there n make lots of new frens…

n ofcoz.. make big money toO… =p

朋友，对不起～我不会安慰人~~

為什麼我不会安慰人~~!!??
為什麼~~~!!???????

看到妳說妳很難過，放不低某些人，某些事时。。。我卻一句話都说不出來。。。
心里很想掏出某些話來安慰你。。。
但脑袋空空的。。。思想一片空白。。。
這种時候，我似乎也只能坐在妳旁邊或者在电话里静静的听妳叙说。。。

妳的痛苦，我感受的到。。。
但為什麼我說不出安慰的話？？
有时我虽然不是很清楚知道发生了什么事，但我真的很关心妳。。。

希望他能改变，对妳好一些吧。。。
再不然的话，就分手吧。。。
以妳的条件，还怕找不到人要吗？？
干嘛要委屈自己？？
如果妳分了，我第一个报名~~
=p


(叹气)~~
有时候隨著年紀的增長、人世的變遷，我們經常會碰到欲言又止、不知道該說什麼的窘境。。。
短短几个月内，我经历了......

朋友打電話告訴我，他失業了；
心仪的女子告诉我，她和男友发生问题;
小妹打電話告訴我，二妹动外科手术;
同事的爸爸健康出了状况；
老朋友正經歷婚變，在離婚阶段；
朋友的哥哥突然死亡。。。


面對這些傷痛或難堪，我可以做些什么？
我能幫上什麼忙？
應該怎样幫忙？
怎樣幫忙才有效？
要幫到什麼樣的程度？

我不知道，我真的不知道。。。不知所措。。。我。。。真的很慚愧。。。

我人在海外，也不知可以为你们做些什么。。。,
我感到万分难过，可是絞盡腦汁，就是不能在適當的時機，說些適當的話或做些適當的事来安慰你们。。。可是我会发自内心的为你们祈祷。。。

朋友～很对不起～～!!! 我不会说话，我只能聆聽。。。
(虽然，我觉得这很肉麻 + 娘 + 白痴)
但我發自內心的祝福~~愿~我所有的家人 朋友 平安健康～永远 快乐～



20th March 2009
translated to english version~~~ as Tina’s wish~~

SORRY to my frens~~ i really duno how to comfort ppl~~~

Sometimes I’m thinking “ y I duno how to comfort people ~~!!??”
Why ~~~!!???????

I wish to say some words to comfort u…
However, my brain is empty n I hav no idea wat to say…
Such times, wat can I do is just sitting next to u or listen to you quietly on the phone…

my frens, I can feel ur pain and understand bour ur feelings too. . .
But I just cant pull out some comforting word…
sometimes, though I’m not really aware wat is happening… but I am really concerned bout u guys…. Just becoz my face farking ‘cool’, but it doesn’t mean I dun care..
I just duno the way to express my feeling to u…
I noe I’m sarks…


(Sigh) ~ ~
sometimes with the growth of older, we often encounter the problem of facing som kind of situation ‘‘duno wat to say’’…
in the past 3 months, I experienced……

• my fren called me to tell me tat he is unemployed;
• the lady i suka told me tat she facing som problem wif her bf;
• my youngest sis sudden call me, my 2nd sis going to hav minor surgery;
• my colleague’s father sick (I think quite serious);
• an old friend is having problem wif his wife(my fren too), divorce stage;
• my fren’s brother died suddenly…

facing of such pain and embarrassment, wat can I do?
wat can I do?
how shall I do?
how to help them effectively?

I duno, I really duno….. wat to do….. I feel so…. ashamed…. n guilty…
sometimes, I do feel upset by listening wat is happening to u guys…
it sounds so lame, but I really dun noe else to do or say...
I just duno how to say some appropriate words, or do som appropriate thing to comfort u at the right time… but no doubt, I’ll pray for u….


so frens~~~ I’m so sorry~~~
I duno how to ‘’speak’’, I can only listen. . .
in the end, I would like to wish all my frens and family living in health n forever happiness ~
(although I think this is very idiot + sounds pussy)
but I really mean tat…

can u imaging 50% of employees lay off within 1 day??

yayaya.. a lot ppl got sacked frm their jobs since Oct 2008 in this country, especially construction related jobs..

well, we all knew tat when recession came, construction industry definitely is the 1st one who taste the effect.. i sudah heard manyak kawan, atau kawan punya kawan ataupun kawan punya wife kena jorr…..
som even worst until kena goreng @ day be4 she go back Malaysia to enjoy her CNY vacation…

=.=’’’

my company also sudah goring manyak org aredi..
i believe more than 150 ppl kena aredi (official announced in Dec is 100 ppl, butHR say more than tat) … n then 2 out of 5 Malaysian (a chinese lady + a Malay guy) who working in this company sudah kena laid off within 2 weeks (secretly goreng)….

n now..
ladies n gentlemen….
HR sudah prepared 450 letters in their computer… a folder name “who will be the next’’~~
lolz~~

the letters r pending for the suitable ‘timing’ to print out n release to the staffs….
can u imaging tat?
almost 50% staff lay off within 1 day (mayb sudah more than 50% now) ~~

OMG~~!!

anyway... I dun feel worry so much right now..
I wish I’m 1 of them.. yes~~ I do hope my name is inside tat list..
but.. ofcoz, I wish tat they will goreng me after May lar.
Let me earn another 2 more months 1st lar…
U noe wat… if they r going to goreng 50% of the staff in this company.. then who is going to do the works?? Ofcoz r those who stil working 1 lar.. there is no doubt bout it, otherwise who is going to do the works?

u will 1 man show, 1 leg kicking later lar…
tiap-tiap hari crying infront on ur desk, facing a table of shit documents everyday, OT until late night & singing “welcome to the hell” everynight..

=.=’’’

nyaseng~~ I have been here almost 1 yr but I nv ever feel it like home..
although this country consider as the least strict of the Middle Eastern countries.. but it still sarks.. . I dun like the culture, law + ppl right here… nyamahai, a man life is worth 200k, a women life is worth half of the male (100k) and a race camel life is worth more than 400k.. (according to expat urban legend, a camel costs twice the blood money of a human)~

u better watch out~~ u better pray u choose a women to langgar when u hit somebody in a car accident….. better pray wont kena camel or horses in this country...

@#$%^&*
wat kind of c2pid law is this?
=.=’’’

sex discrimination damn serious right here…
zZzZzzz
aiks~~~ stop blaming aredi lar..
cabut lar..
run awy from this country be4 too late~~~~
=p

aiks~~ back to the topic..
hrmmm… 50% staff kena goreng within 1 day… it really is a legend~~!!
isn't it~~!!?

i'm legend

今个礼拜裁员名单上无我既名~~
又过一关~~!!!

都知又会裁员咯啦~~
皆因上个礼拜有场 30 亿既工停咗，等咩啊？仲吾炒人咩~~!!??
就甘提心吊胆既过咗５日～～
好彩~~!!!! 仲可以赚多个月粮~~

家阵真係睇住 Dubai 死~~
我间公司大大话话都炒咗百几二白人咯~~
原本我间公司得５个马来西亚人~~
家阵炒咗两条~~
仲剩返３条咋~~

你老昧啊~~
我场工都停咗大大话话都有４个几月~~
就甘拾头拾尾～卑我白白拿咗几十千马币~~

我仲未中炒啊~~
你吹咩~~!!??
甘代表 D 咩呀？
个人认为~~ 我吾係有料，就係好好运~~

lolz～～
扑你个街啊～
@#!@#$%^

i'm legend~~~~!!!!!!

please pray for my fren’s brother~

1 of my fren’s brother passed away 2 dayz ago...

i'm sorry to hear about her loss…

it's nv easy losing someone close~~ especially her brother’s wife, she will need some extra prayers.. they just get married for 2 months ++

let's pray for his frens & family~ take care and well wishes~~

Happening in CNY – Part 5

New car~~!!!
Silver color myVi wif the plate no.of 349~~ finally there is a family car for my family~~
Pls~ dun hit tat car when u c it on the road~~~
lolz~~

it is kinda rush to get the car… my mother insist to get the car be4 CNY~~
she ‘‘threats’’ the salesman sommore just becoz she want to get the car be4 CNY~~

actually I knew tat my mum doing tat just becoz of me..
mayb she think tat I can hav a car to fetch ahmoi during this CNY~~
I think this is her intention lar… She starts chasing me to get a gf aredi…
zZzZzz~~~

OMG~~ y all the parents also suka doing tat~~!!????
Pls~ let me settle down my life dulu lar….

n pls~ dun date those auntie punya daughter for me~~
I knew there r few aunties aiming me right now… =.=’’’

never ever arrange ‘dating’ for me pls~~~!!!
otherwise I’ll make tat gal cry infront of u~~!!
lolz~~~

fed up + moOdy againZ~

我想咬人~

我想咬人咗~~!!!
就黎颠架喇~~!!!!

wat am i doing here????
wat the fark am i doinG right here~~~~~~!!!?????
wat the fark am i doing in this c2piD country~~~!!!!!???????


fark dap~~~!!

it remind me som 1 say somthing in the movie~
"Body of Lies"~~

Toward the end of the film, Crowe's Hoffman expresses incredulity at Ferris's apparent intention to stay in the M*ddle East instead of returning home.

"I like it here," says Ferris(Leonardo DiCaprio), and Hoffman(Russell Crowe) gawks: "This is the M*ddle East. There's nothing here to like."

__/¯¯\O

Memorable quotes for this movie~~
Ed Hoffman(Russell Crowe): "Ain't nobody likes the Middle East, buddy. There's nothing here to like."

I strongly agree bout tat statement~~~!!!

Happening in CNY – Part 2

I went to sombody’s new house in this CNY..
a 2ndarly school punya classmate punya house…
it can be consider as house warming also lar...
Well.. all my schoolmate/classmate also richer than me 1..
Becoz I’m alwyz the poorest among them…
(all my 2ndary scholmate punya bapa sgt rich 1..)

=p

It is a semi bungalow (corner unit) in Kota Damansara~

OMG~~!!
This is so farking huge + luxuries~
This semi bungalow cost more than 2 million++ (I heard almost 3 million wor) to buy it + renovation…
It takes almost 1 yr to complete the renovation works….

Once I step into tat gate… Look at the landscape~~so beautiful~~ there is a water fountain~~!!!

ok~~ let's tep into the house 1st…
Fark man.. those lighting + furniture farking luxury~~
look tat the finishes applied in tat house....
U can noe tat they really spend a lot of money on tat..

wow~~ look at that door.. they using a high class 2 hours fire rated door..even just a bedroom door..
n tat ironmongery~~ did u c tat?
ppl usually use tat in external door 1… but they use it in common room door….

OMG~~ there is a KTV room~~
Farking big KTV room~~~
Y there is a 42 inches plasma TV~~ I tot there is a projector aredi…
wait…..!! tat 42 inches TV only use to choose the songs only…!!!
(U tak payah go to red box anymore lar.. tat system totally sama as the Red Box 1…)
Makalo~~ my home only using a 32 inches old TV only..
Ppl using a 42 inches plasma Sony TV to choose song…

@#$%^&*

Fark… starting from tat moment..
I noe wat I want aredi…
Finally……I hav a new target/aim/goal…!!!!
Tell u wat… I hav been LOST since I achieved my last goal (which is work in oversea n earning 5 digit salary per month)..

Fark~~!!!
I wan my family to stay into such unit~~!!!!
I will work hard to gain money starting from today~~~!!!!!!

kena saman~ @#$%^&*

holly shit~~

kena 2 saman in UAE~~!!!

end of Nov n early of December 1...
we overspeed??
really??

1.3k Dhs gone~~
each of us (fatty + me) Dhs 650 bye bye aredi..

fark man~~

zZzZzzz~~